Aching for Him

Yes, I want him, so much, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t. (Who’d lie to a blog?)

Is the age difference is a big deal? I’m 24 and he’s 42. I just had a birthday. May 21.

If he doesn’t want me I would be okay with that too. I just want to help watch the boys as long as they need someone, really. Just change & pick up the baby, help the big boys. Right now they call me Aunt Peppermint, or Pepper.

I’m scared of only two things

1. I’d not be good at it, not be enough help.
2. What would people think?

I just don’t want his family to be angry with me

I feel like M is watching me.